For the past few years my father had suffered from heart problems. We all knew that time was precious, and I made a conscious effort to build as many memories as I could. I visited whenever I could took my kids to visit him, I called and talked to him whenever I got the urge. He was one of my very best friends as a little boy and we were always sharing stories and swapping tales. He was funny and smart, and knew how to fix anything.

Watching the father I loved slowly deteriorate, was heartbreaking for me and Jessi, because no matter how hard we wished for it, he wasn’t going to get better. 

I got to sit and visit with him one last time a few months ago, watched my son and daughter interact with him as much as they could. I sat and looked at him in his grey warm up and noticed how small he was. He seemed so big to me when I was a kid and even as a teenager. He was the life of the party, all his buddies would just hang out to be around my dad.

I will miss him every day of my life. I will miss seeing his face, and hearing his voice, and I would give anything in this world to be able to talk to him just one more time.
I was remembering when I was small how he was my special hero, and I can never thank him enough for all of the things he taught me, all the funny things he used to say and think and for all of the wonderful memories he has given me to treasure.

He and I took a trip in 1997 to New Mexico, just me and my dad, I got to tell him how I had become a Christian how my life was different, and how much I loved God and thanked God for him. I asked if he wanted that same relationship one like I had with Jesus. I never got a straight answer. I can only hope that he heard the gospel message and said yes to Jesus.

Throughout my life, I wanted to make him proud and honor him by being the best person I can be. He would want me to go on with my life, to be happy and productive, to enjoy watching my own childern grow into a good and decent human being. I thank God every day for giving me my dad. I’ll always love you,

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